Question by Brenden: I don’t feel like I am real, or that I exist in this dimension?
For the past few months, I’ve never felt completely sober. I’ve never felt completely connected to my body either.
For some back ground info, I’m 17, male, I’m 6 feet tall and weigh around 185. I had started to take college courses for information technologies and have 20 credits, but I decided I want to go another route. In other words, I’m not the dumbest guy ever.
In my time I’ve done many drugs including alcohol, marijuana, salvia, ecstasy, cocaine, pcp, and meth. (Doing pcp and meth were both accidents I haven’t repeated)
I have a hard time remembering things that happened 5 minutes ago, I have a hard time picking out peoples voices from surrounding noise, light is too much and I like the night better than day. And all of this is because im not completely connected. Like im spaced out, but cant snap back into reality.
To further describe what I am feeling I’ll give some experiences I’ve had over the past couple years.
I’ve been sitting in my room listening to music, completely sober mind you, and I randomly get this funny feeling wash over me, and my hand is laying next to me on the bed. I start to feel this wierd sensation on my hand and move it around on my bed a little. It starts to feel like there are little patches of different materiel under my hand. Like rough concrete, soft felt, and bumpy braille. As I look down I realize I’m feeling the difference between colors in the design on my mattress. This continued for about 5 minutes before the sensation slowly faded away.
Ive also experienced similar hallucinations but with my hearing, where I was walking to my mother having a conversation, but she stopped replying and I realized she was not even home.
More recently I’ve had experiences where something effects me, and my consciousness leaves my body and I am sitting in a room in some other place, watching my body do its own thing, and I have no control. This happened at a concert I attended about a month ago, I was leaning against a speaker and the DJ dropped this track with some really intense bass that shook me so hard my teeth clattered. As that happened I could feel my spirit our soul or consciousness leave me, and I started shaking uncontrollably and giggling like the Joker from batman. When this happened I saw this happen to myself
The shaking and giggling and not having full control of myself lasted for about 5 hours. 100% sober.
I also do alot of personal research on different dimensions, the pineal gland, DMT, out of body experiences, string theory, quantum physics, ancient mysticism, etc. etc. I do alot of this personal research because the only way I can describe what I am experiencing with one statement is this.
I don’t feel completely attached to my human body. Sometimes I feel like it isn’t mine, or that I am really existing in a different dimension, but for some reason I’m stuck here, when I should be there. Living does not feel right.
Can you help me figure out what this is? I’ll probably be seeing a psychologist soon but figured this wouldn’t hurt. I don’t want to make it stop, I just want to identify and explain it. This is who I am. I DON’T want to change it. But I want to know what makes me so different from every human on this earth…
ANY feedback is greatly appreciated and I thank you ahead of time
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